I made up by day for t at niger a bat ired. I darkened my bedroom and as I undressed I came on t; but I forgot t Maria and  t  till I  up in t I remembered t t I o find a dress s. I got myself ready in very good  out ter to have dinner.

    It  masked ball I o participate in. In earlier days, it is true, I tended sucivities and even sometimes found tertaining, but I ator merely. As for talked and rejoiced over t ruck me as comic. And nooo to find t painful suspense. As I ner to take, I decided not to go till late. too, hermine had counseled me.

    I e been to teel , my former refuge,  out t bac did not suit to lead since. to it before I  fate and parting imposed on me just noations and sation in my lifes pilgrimage caug gleam of pain and beauty t comes from t; and so too tle tavern, trons I ely been numbered and e of a bottle of cely ened me enougo spend one more nigo endure life for one more day. I asted otronger stimulus since ter poison. itered t el. ted me and so,  company of ués. A roast c before me. t glass. te ables and te and drank t feeling of cions, t s and in of all t  been parted from, and from o part imentality.  te objects.  even love  sacred object, orcar, but is ever o exc as soon as er model. ty. renuous—a splendid type, and in t   a modern man, nor an old-fasime altoget my  my elboion to sentimentalities. I o find a trace of anytill remaining in my burned-out . So I let my memories of tavern and my attac to t and  ty in fareleness in tone. t o me,