quot;Ive even fallen in love and had someone love me back.”

    I kissed , t against my cheek.

    quot;Its not fair,quot; I said.

    S answer.

    quot;Are you still afraid?quot; I asked.

    quot;Yes.”

    quot;Im afraid, too,quot; I said.

    quot;I know. And Im sorry.”

    quot; can I do?quot; I asked desperately. quot;I dont knoo do anymore.”

    quot;ill you read to me?”

    I nodded, t kno t page  breaking down.

    Please, Lord, tell me o do!

    quot;Mom?quot; I said later t night.

    quot;Yes?”

    e ting on to , I slipped out of  before I did, I kissed ly on t ions in  me, kno I loved er but also kno Id broken one of t he door.

    I couldnt blame  really. I found t spending time o feel  by aug fe actions-not ts or intentions-o judge ot   all t next to my mothe sofa.

    quot;Do you t; I asked.

    It  time Id asked ion, but times.

    quot;Im not sure I understand ; she said, frowning.

    quot;I mean- youre supposed to do?”

    quot;Are you asking me about spending time h Jamie?”

    I nodded, till confused. quot;Sort of. I kno t . . . sometime alk and read t . . .”

    I paused, and my mot for me.

    quot;You think you should be doing more?”

    I nodded.

    quot;I dont kno t,quot; sly.

    quot;the way I do?”

    Stle closer on tcogether.

    quot;I ts because youre frigrying, tinue to get ry, things seem.”

    quot;Is to stop feeling this way?”

    S ;No,quot; sly,