borrotle bookcase in reception, a silly one  pink cover called Pa a single girl urns into a s to marry  s sure because , so sakes a imes I read t, and sometimes I slept. Ive always been fine on my own.

    And t to Mass, for t time in a monto it o  do ts mostly because I didnt kno after t everyttle  knohe language.

    I got used to it, t o a dark room - and it er a little ed to be able to see t I could see ual people, of course, but tenerife versions. t looking dotle unsteady on , even at t time of day, and t .

    And t kno tle  t me staring and s I  it seemed so strange, sucil I t about it. And  o any c, pus ed, probably.

    MARtIN  I icularly introspective man, and I say tically. One could argue t most of trouble in trospection. Im not t crime - not t sort of trouble. Im tearful c-ss and so on. I can nos o prevent introspection  sit around and t oneself. You could try t ot tried to t tended to be people I kne people I kne broug back to  to be.

    So in some  ake, c of tel and going off on my oated t of me, and Maureen depressed me, t of me t s untenanted and unfurnis  just t, eitively accomplisy t I mig all, and it  difficult to imagine t tinue to do not all, and tinational company in t troop at weekends.

    I moved into a room t ical to taying in, except I treated myself to a sea vie on taring at trospective. I cant say t I icularly inventive in my introspection; t day  Id made a pigs ear of just about everyt Id be better off dead, and if I died no