Chapter 4
ict s at table, observed to tter all ts of t by distraction to divert foods. But it o tification of touc t assiduous ingenuity of inventiveness. ion in bed, sat in t uncomfortable positions, suffered patiently every itc a at t part of air miging t saying iffly at s or clasped behind him.
emptations to sin mortally. It surprised o find t at tricate piety and self-restraint tions. s availed tle for t being disturbed in ions. It needed an immense effort of o master to give outlet to sucation. Images of tbursts of trivial anger ed among ers, tc lips and fluso ice of y, by to merge ide of oting or prayer and it failure to do to isfaction a sensation of spiritual dryness togets and scruples. raversed a period of desolation in o urned into dried-up sources. ed imperfections. ual reception of t did not bring s of virginal self-surrender as did tual communions made by imes at t to t. ts ed book ten by saint Alpers and sere foxpapered leaves. A faded love and virginal responses seemed to be evoked for s pages in ers prayers. An inaudible voice seemed to caress telling ains of to anser ubera mea commorabitur.
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once again by tent voices of to murmur to ations. It gave ense sense of poo kno of consent, in a moment of t, undo all t o feel a flood slooo be ing for t faint timid noiseless to touc at tant of t touc at t, anding far a of tion; and, seeing ts slooisfaction so kno yielded nor undone all.
emptation many times in troubled and bei